Family, Fibromyalgi, Health Struggles

Moving Foward

Forward

Stepping Forward in Faith

How is the Laundry Pile moving forward? In the last post that was originally posted in February of 2017, and updated just this week on November 20th, 2017 I shared a few updates on our family. I also posed the question: What is next for this blog and what are my plans moving forward? I will attempt to answer those questions in this little post.

The heading of this section sums up what my plans are for both this blog and for my daily life. I plan to keep the blog in place. I haven’t written much over the past two years. There have been some very specific reasons for that silence.  I have shared with you a little bit of what has been happening in the health of my family, and that is a primary reason for my silence. I needed to focus on caring for my kids, my husband, and my own health.

Another large reason for my silence has been a medication that I myself was taking for almost two years. I started taking Cymbalta very soon after I began seeing my new internal medicine doctor. I wanted that medication to be a fix it for me. It was at the beginning. I had less pain and seemed to be able to do more. Soon, I began to notice the side effects of that powerful medication.

One step forward, two steps back

I know that many of you have taken Cymbalta. This medication seems to affect different people in many different ways. I soon struggled with fatigue. This was not my normal fatigue that I associated with my Fibromyalgia. Instead, it was a crippling sleepiness and general fatigue that prevented me from doing many of my daily activities. I was struggling to stay awake while I was schooling my children. I quickly shared this with my doctor and she reduced my dosage by half.

The reduction seemed to help me, but overall the sleepiness was still dominating. I struggled to wake up in time to have my own personal Bible time and was barely able to get up to help my kids with their morning routine. I wasn’t sure at the time if this was due to the medication, but I believed there wasn’t really anything I could do about this problem.

Another powerful side effect for me was that I was not able to write.

I was devastated by this development. I love writing and having this outlet to share my life taken away was very difficult to handle. Yet, I believed that this medication was something I needed to try, I had not found anything else that improved my quality of life, and the pain levels were better, so I kept taking it.

Moving day by day

So for the next several months, I focused on my family. I focused on my eating habits, and on building routines for my family that would help us to move forward together. As time passed I found the Cymbalta was helping less and less. In addition, I began to grow very discouraged and depression crept back into my heart again.

So a few months ago my doctor and I made the decision to stop taking the Cymbalta. I was relieved, but also a bit frightened. One of my biggest fears about adding Cymbalta to my medication routine was the withdrawal. All my research had said that withdrawal was very scary.

It took about two weeks for me to wean off the medication. During this time I became completely debilitated. I was so dizzy and disoriented I could barely walk without a cane.  I felt a powerful sensation of being startled each time I turned my head or adjusted my physical position. Once I was off the medication it took about a week and I was finally free of symptoms. It took a good three weeks, but I am finally Cymbalta free. I don’t want to go through that experience again!

Since that time I have explored more natural remedies to help heal my adrenals, and I have actually started following the Trim Healthy Mama plan.  (For more information head over to the Trim Healthy Mama Website)

What’s Next?

I have filled you all in a little bit of what I have been working through over the past several months, and now the question remains what is going on with this little blog?

I hope to write more again. Time will tell what that actually looks like. I would like to use this blog as a place to share with you all what we are about to walk through with my youngest daughter. I would like to share with you all what the Lord is teaching me and how he is working in my life.

Things may be sporadic.

I might write for a bit, and then remain silent for a time.

Time will tell.

I don’t know what the next few months will hold for me or this blog. My heart is thankful that I have the freedom write again. With confidence I will trust that the Lord is walking right alongside my family as we face the difficult journey that is ahead for us. I hope to continue to write and to share this journey with you all. Perhaps by doing this, I will be able to build a community of people who can encourage each other and build each other up as we all walk through this difficult thing called life.

 

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *