Today marks the last Monday of my Whole30 journey. I am honestly surprised at how fast it has gone by while at the same time surprised that I made it through such a long and difficult process. It really is funny how perspective seems to shift back and forth at times. Going from feeling like I am on top of this and a total winner, to being whiny and complaining about what I can’t have and how hard this process is.
I am looking forward to being done with my 30 day commitment to this particular way of eating, but I also realize that I will be eating pretty much the same way for a long time to come if I want to see progress in my health and weight.
Last week I was really struggling, and at times I was ready to give up. I was tired to being so restricted. You see, doing the whole30 on a tight budget is hard. When the budget is tight it means that you are very limited one what you can eat. Very. Limited.
I won’t deny that one bit. This way of eating can be expensive.
I have also found myself a bit frustrated by some of the attitudes that I see from some of the “healthy people” online.
I have seen many different memes circulating online making jokes about people, like me, who claim that eating healthy is expensive. These jokes range anywhere from showing pictures of medical testing or equipment and saying things like:
“You think Eating Organic is expensive……Try paying for cancer treatments.”
Showing a picture of a shopping cart filled with all sorts of junk food, with the quote,
“People on Food Stamps be Like……I can’t afford to eat organic.”
The truth is many of the people making these remarks and comments have never really had to live on a tight budget and eat this way. They are feeding only themselves or a much smaller family and have a much larger percentage of their income that can go to their grocery budget.
I have a family of 7 to feed, and we can’t afford to eat organic meat. I sure would love to, but the cost is almost 3 times as much as the cheaper stuff. I wish I could use my money to support the farmers who are working hard to provide us with food that is healthier, but at this season in my life I can’t spend money on those things.
The bottom line is I want to do the best I can for my family with what God has given us. That means that I need to trust God to take care of our bodies when we are eating some foods that may have things in them that aren’t healthy for us.
Another issue that came up last week that really was an epiphany for me was this:
I am now free to say NO.
For years and years I felt like I was a slave to my cravings. I would be around something I was not supposed to be eating and I just couldn’t say no. I had to eat it.
Last Friday I made frozen pizza’s for my kids, and I was preparing a shrimp dish for my husband and I. As I was serving up the pizza, I was feeling a bit disgruntled. I wanted some of the pizza, and I was thinking of all the reasons why I should be able to have some of that pizza. I looked at the calendar and decided I couldn’t mess up now with only a week left in my 30 days. So I served the kids, and enjoyed my shrimp.
While I was putting away the left over pizza I realized something. I had a new ability. I could say no to food! I was no longer a slave to the cravings. I was in charge of what I put into my mouth.
Many of you will not relate to this “epiphany” at all.
Yet, I am sure there are many of you who understand exactly what I am talking about.
Have you lived your life feeling like you wanted to make a change, but you just couldn’t do it. You tried and failed over and over and over and over again.
I have lived that way for a long time.
But I have an ability now that I haven’t before.
I can finally say NO!
Don’t get me wrong, I expect that I will fail again and give into my cravings. I expect that I will have to go relearn this lesson. But, like most spiritual battles once a little bit of ground is won away from the enemy it is easier and easier to gain more ground.
I am so thankful that the Lord has set me from my sinful passions and desires. I have had these freedoms a lot longer than I actually put them into practice, but that my friends is changing.